S1 E70 — Lingering Fear My Cover Was Blown

The Tau of Steves: What You Don’t Know Could Fill a Book

Summer  August 2019

Steve Harvey, 62: “Following through on an impulse takes courage.  Not following through takes self-control.  Knowing which choice to make in this regard takes wisdom.” Capricorn

What’s been going on?  Truth be known, many years ago when Emma the Baroness and I were twenty-somethings and rented an apartment in Corona del Mar, California I recorded this in one of my journals I just transcribed: 

“Scorpio (October 24 – November 22) You are capable of getting whatever you want most, so go after it now.  Be charming with those you love and admire.

And, then I went on to illustrate how well my day played out.

Hi and welcome to this second day of August and Episode 70 in the first season of My 1-Year Experiment.

“ … P.S. Thanx for reminding me — I have to go to the bank.”

At 11:30 — back from my scenic down Pacific Coast Highway.Noticed MacDonald’s across from the Balboa Bay Club has a help wanted banner. A medium-sized nondescript imitation Cadillac pulls out in front of me as I approach the Bay Club.

Down Bayside past the Reuben E. Lee paddle-wheel floating restaurant going the back way into Corona del Mar again. Stopping off at Bayside — where we had done our laundry on Saturday.

Remembering Friday — running late at work (Roger and I were learning how to operate the Auto Clinic Commercial biofeedback machine until 5 pm) anxious to get to the bank to deposit my sum total wages into Emma the Baroness’ account to pay the bills. And then that, “Ah-it’s-Friday” drive down the coast to Laguna Beach and to my P.O. Box.”

“… Hi, how are you today?” the drive up teller stated matter of factly. I deposited $5 into Emma the Baroness’ account and $5 into my checking account.

Waiting for the receipts I recalled a funny question asked of me by an inside teller a couple of days ago.

As he was processing my transaction — he asked, “Have you been getting your mail?” out of the clear blue sky (actually grey overcast sky).

“Yeah, I think so why?”

“I don’t know — your name sounds familiar — like maybe I saw it in the backroom on the table of things to mail.”

“Well, I just got my last statement and checks,” I replied as I had turned to walk away.

“Must have been it,” he said. And added, “Have a nice day!”

I slid out into the south bound traffic. As I approached the left turn into Ocean Avenue on my way to Box 580 — I suffered a mild anxiety attack.

“I’ve got to go through with it,” I thought as I pulled into a space marked for compact cars.

“I’ve got to sign. So what if they know I’m here? All my debts are discharged, over a year ago. Maybe I’d better mail that VA change in before i sign, just in case that phone call asking for D Marie was a check-up on my current status. Oh hell. Here I go.”

… “Well, I (my heart rate picked up and my face changed temperatures with my feet) found this waiting for me in my PO box over the weekend.”

He left.

He returned.

“Sign here and here”

I was handed a green cart attached to the fateful letter (“Oh my God, I’ve signed and it’s too late”).



I signed the original pink slip and turned the envelope over as I was walking away on my way out side. Not wanting to know who had sealed my doom and yet wanting to, I couldn’t bring my eyes to focus on the return address in the corner.

For a second, I was distracted by another smile and hello from a blonde going in the opposite direction.

“Hmm. I know her — what are all these friendly smiles today?”

My hand felt the envelop’s unbalance. Something hard, the size of one half of a business envelop was inside.

It was blue, “Oh My God —my savings pass book — I didn’t know it was missing.

Oh right.  The address read, “California 1st Bank, Post Office Box 345, Newport Beach, California 92662.”

“But who was that last blonde?”


But, that was then and this is today.  I’m guessing this has more to do with getting all of us heading shortly to Norway for a vacation to get it together.

“5”  Steve Zahn, 51:There will be many people and personalities to contend with, each with their own agenda.  Settle on an itinerary you can all agree to.” Scorpio

Random ones that make me want change my sign.

Now, let’s turn to the list of Steves from which I can steal their Holiday Tau, if I need it.  Hmm.  Maybe the better play here is similar to past attempt as rolling them together to tell a story better than the individual TauBits.  Shall we?

Does the answer lie somewhere between impulse and self-control?

“4”  Steve Harvey, 62: “Following through on an impulse takes courage.  Not following through takes self-control.  Knowing which choice to make in this regard takes wisdom.” Capricorn

Wait, what did my mother say about curiosity?

“3”  Steve McQueen (1930 – 1980): “Following your curiosity will get you close to understanding a person’s feelings, passions and drives.” Aries

I’m not a cat, but …

“3”  Steve Winwood, 71; Stevie Wonder, 69; Stephen Colbert, 56: “Doubts set in.  Does what you’re doing matter? Is it adding up the way you wanted it to? Avoid.  March right past it.” Taurus

Will my imagination wipe out my focus or …

“3” Steve Greene, 34; Steve Guttenberg, 61: “With your incredibly opulent powers of imagination surging today, you can apply yourself in any number of directions.” Libra

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Inspired by Holiday Mathis – Creators Syndicate